Resolutions

I usually see no point in making resolutions. "this year I am going to quit smoking" then the credit card bills roll in for the presents and quitting is not an option anymore; "this year I am going to jog every morning" and it never fails on the morning of January 2nd there is a blizzard. Fuck. I gave up on resolutions a long time ago.

This coming year is going to bring major change for myself and my family. We are moving out of state back to the place where my husband and I grew up. In the next six months (if all goes right) we will be finding our first home to buy in range of a good school for our children and trading in both cars for new ones, all while adhering to a strict budget and my maintaing my GPA. Double Fuck.

My point is what needs to be done this year is going to take a lot pf planning and maturity. I am mature (at least I think so), but there are many around me who are not. So, with the changes I am planning for there needs to be changes within me as well. I am done with the immaturity. I am not going to watch grown people throw fits over things that were their decision in the first place. It is in my nature and my study as a psychology student to be the shoulder to lean on, and for the most part I love it. But, there needs to be growth and I am tired of watching the people around me run on the hamster wheel of immaturity.

It won't be easy, and I will come out to be the bad guy. I am ok with that. Because, I am determined to give my family the life we deserve and I cannot keep fishing people out of the quicksand. I have chosen a career helping the men and women in law enforcement and armed forces through stress that comes with the job they have chosen. The main reason for this choice of career path is I don't have to coddle these men and women. I can cut to the chase without the usual tactics used by typical psychologists. This was a deliberate choice because I am not good at hand-holding.

So, here's to a new year filled with positive changes and growth.